Ate Jello. Peed.

(Writing from the parent terminal at Hinsdale Hospital)

Daughter made it through her tonsil/adenoid removal. She is an absolute trooper. The first 2 hours after waking up from anesthesia were pretty much filled with dry heaving and sobbing. The last 8 hours she's been ok as long as she could sit on top of myself or husband. We begged and promised pink unicorns if she would only take a drink of juice. And at last we realized that she just wanted her own sippy cup. Once her pink plastic cup was in hand she started chugging apple juice like a sailor on shore leave. Then jello! And she peed! Though they are keeping us overnight because of her age, we are relieved that she's doing so well.

The sad news is that Kate died this morning. She actually died at 7:30 AM. What time did daughter go under for surgery? Why that would be 7:30 AM. Given my pre-surgery fears, I think that this is not a coincidence. Call me crazy, I do all the time, but I think Kate was watching out for daughter. And strangely, I got a letter in the mail from her just yesterday. It was lovely and filled with gratitude towards my parents adopting me. For me, for coming back into her life. It was very much a goodbye letter, so I think she made some peace with moving on.

I'm sad. And relieved she's not in pain. And realizing how lucky I was that she greeted me with open arms when I came looking for her. I am glad that I got a chance to know her before she died.

And now I have to get some more cherry jello and go hug daughter.

31 comments:

Jennifer said...

Gosh Lotta, what a day. I'm glad daughter is doing well and I'm sure she will be treated like the true princess that she is until she is back to normal. I'm sorry to hear about Kate.

Hetha said...

You've been through so much lately, I think once daughter is home and recovered you should schedule a Lotta's night out, or a day of shopping or manicures with some girlfriends. You're a trooper. Glad to hear all is well with that little beauty.

PamKittyMorning said...

Glad all is well with the darling daughter. You're right, Kate was watching over her I'm sure. Sweet she sent a lovely letter to you.
Big hugs to you Lotta, and your family.

Diana said...

So if this posts twice, I'm sorry blogger is all jacked up on me tonight.

So sorry to hear about Kate, Lotta. Big hugs to you. I'm glad that daughter is doing well though! Give her extra hugs too!

Domestic Chicky said...

Big smoochy lovey hugs to you and the little.

plainjanemom.com said...

Oh man, Lotta, what a day. Very glad that daughter is doing well! That post-anesthesia period can be rough, and it sounds like it went pretty well. Good call on the cup-from-home!

As for Kate, I'm glad you have the letter to keep for later if you find you need to think about all of this more later. What a whirlwind.

Does the hospital serve jello shots, perchance? Seems like a few would be in order on this day :)

MnRooMom said...

Coming out of lurking to offer my condolences on your loss. What a sweet moment 7:30 was... when heaven and earth met. Wishing daughter a fast and painless recovery and you lots of peace.

Hol&J said...

Sorry to hear about Kate. My heart aches for you, but I'm glad she's not in pain anymore.

Good to hear that daughter is recovering and doing well.

((hugs to both of you))

Mamma said...

Holy crap what a day!!

I get what you mean about the coincidence of the timing. I totally buy it too.

I'd love to talk offline sometime about Kate. I've never looked for my birth mom. Your story though intrigues me.

Hang in there friend. Big hugs to you.

Katrina said...

I think you're right about Kate. I think she was watching out for you little one. I am so sorry for your loss.

I am glad that your daughter came through safe and sound. Kids are tough! And having one's own sippy cup is paramount to a speedy recovery! Maybe that's what I need to get over this cold from hell.

Hugs, my friend, hugs.

Marymurtz said...

My daughter's birth mother is an alcoholic and I have been trying to find a way to send her photos of our daughter, knowing someday that April may want to see her. She had a terrible drug problem and I just feel that someday, they need the opportunity to know one another and speak about the paths of their lives.

I'm glad you had that opportunity, as hard as it must have been at times. I am so sorry she passed away-it's always a loss, even when it's so very, very complicated.

stuffed said...

Glad daughter is doing well. Sorry about Kate but that's a very nice perspective. Wouldn't call it crazy at all.

mrsgingergrl said...

I'm so gald your little girl did well, and so sorry about Kate. I believe you are right, she watched out for your daughter.

thank you also for the kind words and support the last few weeks. I've loved your blog for so long, it meant a lot to me to hear from you, and have you even mention me here.

EmbracingKatrina said...

I just wanna give you a great big hug.

Kelly said...

Condolences to you.

Best wishes for a speedy recovery for your daughter. You'll be surprised how quickly she'll bounce back. At least I was!

Gretchen said...

Big hugs on both accounts. What a day you had!

Katie J said...

Glad the surgery went well. Sippy cups have amazing powers, don't they?

Sorry to hear about Kate. My daughter will never be able to meet her birth mother and although I know it's been difficult for you, I'm so glad you were able to meet and spend a little with her.

jakelliesmom said...

My goodness, what a day you had.

Speedy recovery to your girl, and rest in peace, Kate. What a blessing to have received that letter. I'm sure your presence meant a lot to her in her last days.

~JJ! said...

hugs Lotta.

Muffy Willowbrook said...

You've definitely been on the emotional roller coaster lately, Lotta. I'm not sure what to say. It seems you have found peace with Kate, and I'm glad for that. And maybe she was looking after your daughter during surgery - that's a sweet idea. Good luck to her on her recovery.

I'm glad to see you're keeping your chin up!

Miss Jess said...

Tears are welling in my eyes right now. I'm sorry for your loss but glad you are at peace with everything. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now.

Oh, The Joys said...

I believe she was watching over her too.

I'm sorry and glad and all jumbled - you have a lot going on today, my friend.

Hugs to you!!
xo,
J

Mitzi Green said...

i'm sorry for your loss, and glad your little one is doing well. tonsilectomies are a bitch. (well, they are from what i remember 32 years ago.)

Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah said...

I'm with you sister. Ian had this exact same surgery on Monday.

Aimee Greeblemonkey said...

I am sure Kate made sure the surgery went really smoothly for you. I am very sorry for your loss, big hugs.

Megan said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I'm glad your daughter is doing okay. I wish her a speedy recovery!

Mama Drama Jenny, the Bloggess said...

Oh sweetie. I suck. I'm a day late to give you a giant hug. If I were as psychic as you I would have known that you were having such a traumatic day and I could have...I don't know...done something.

Many hugs to you, my friend.

~Diet Goddess~ said...

Lotta...I'm so sorry about Kate, but glad to hear daughter is doing well. I'm with you - she was watching out for her.

*hugs*

Lotta said...

Thanks so much, all your comments are so nice.

Michele said...

I'm glad your daughter's doing well, but so sorry about Kate. If "stuff" comes up later, please don't hesitate to contact me if you want to work your way through it with someone. Been there, done that, and I'm really good at plain old listening.

Lisa Milton said...

I just read your posts from the past few days; it seems like a lot to take in.

Hope your cute little girl is on the mend, and hey, while we are at it, I'm thinking of you too - what a lot to take in.